8 January 2016

I'm Back- Why I went away & life update...

“In another moment down went Alice after it, never once considering how in the world she was to get out again.”

Why hello there my lovelies, it is so nice to see you once again. So you are probably wondering where the hell I have been. Well that I'm afraid is a rather long & troublesome tale, I have felt unable to share for some considerable amount of time.

I suppose I should first apologise for how long I have left you guys all alone with my little empty blog. And I do (apologise that is) from the bottom of my heart. 

Now on the hard bits, the confessions & secrets once unbeknown even to myself. I have spent the last few months of my blogging back in (gosh 2013?) fighting & losing a battle with my own mind and body. I had horrific panic attacks, moments of mania followed by crashes of debilitating depression. By this point my yet undiagnosed anxiety was making me unable to leave my bedroom or have the courage to write a blog post, in case it wasn't good enough. 

So in 2013 I took a sudden hiatus from blogging due to a  sudden mental breakdown. I left work, left friends, family and reality. Preferring and only able to sit and lock myself away in my room, day after day and sleep. It was this year I was diagnosed with Bordeline personality disorder. In addition to this, several comorbidities, including severe anxiety, depression and things I am still uncomfortable talking about openly now (please forgive and I hope you understand this).

I intend to write more about my mental health & mental health awareness on either a different blog or a certain day of the week (once I am back blogging normally). Please feel free to email me any questions about mental health & I shall try answer as quickly as possible. 

I do not want to hover around the bad bits as this has been quite difficult for me to type. So, on to the good!

I am in services, I met a boy who loves, understands and saves me everyday. Without him, I would not be here writing this blog again. 
The best news? New year he asked me to marry him....and I said yes!!!! So I am now a fiancĂ© and I cannot believe how lucky I am . Thank you to my love Alex, my friends, my family & you guys for being so amazing. 

I shall proceed normal fashion/beauty blogs soon. But until then... 

See you next time...


1 comment:

  1. AW LOVELY GIRL! it's so unfair when your mind decides to act differently and you become an enemy with your own body. I struggle with GAD, my mental health has been a mess for the last two years, up and down, and fighting against myself, and mis-remembering things so i feel like a bad person, intrusive thoughts, et al.... I for one and really looking forward to hearing more from you! I'm going to come and follow you on twitter now because I've read your blog for an absolute age and I don't know why I haven't already!On a lighter note - Congratulations to you and Alex <3 <3 <3

    Charlotte - redlipsreallife.wordpress.com xxx